Dreams… successions of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations that occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep. Those that I either anticipate or fear are my involuntary dreams.
I have had dreams that I could not wait to revisit again, such as meeting that mysterious man, or woman (Heyyy, what can I say? That’s what dreams are for!…J/k), who made me feel important (seen), beautiful and wanted, and sometimes bring that “happy ending” (if you know what I mean), which had me awaken to the most pleasant and sensational feeling pulsating all over my body. Or the delectable spread of my favored nourishments that I always seemed to be torn from, just as I was about to take my first bite (i.e. I was awoken from my dream).
But I also had those dreams that frightened me right out of my deep sleep. There might be ones where someone was trying to kill me. And I can never forget the time, after I had decided to take this “journey” and change up my pace, where there were about 4-6 maggots crawling on the windowpane.
Dreaming of these little clear-ish, white caterpillars can be interpreted as one having incorrect feelings or emotions towards someone or something. And they can also be indicative of the fact that you need to confront the thoughts and rid yourself of guilt or regret. On a positive side, they can also show ones will power to get through any hard situations at any point in life. Dreaming of these revolting critters certainly shows one’s anxiety and fears that are tormenting them round the clock in their wake life.
After the maggot dream, I was initially worried when I awoke and immediately searched for answers about what these dreams could mean. And after I learned more, I was able to relate these distressing dreams to my conscious life. Instead of being fearful of the dreams, I allowed for them to empower me. I have always been “tough” and able to overcome the negative aspects and events that occurred in my life. Even while some events have been more difficult than others to overcome, I have never allowed for myself to give in to desolation. And though the decision to embark on this solo mission to self-discovery is the biggest and most terrifying choice I have ever made, I know I am capable. Perhaps those maggots (I know it’s disgusting) are exactly what I needed to see to remind me that the strength and courage has always been inside of me, even through my darkest hours.
I believe that our involuntary dreams open the possibilities to our capabilities to embrace our voluntary dreams, or the deep conditions or achievements that are longed for. Aspirations are those that may or may not be feasible or practical, but are thoughts that I take pleasure in fantasizing about throughout my waking days.
My involuntary dreams gave me the courage to encourage my voluntary dreams (i.e. daydreams) to live carelessly and audaciously. They have enabled me to think bigger than myself. Instead of meditating on and accepting that I was crazy or a seriously disturbed individual (because let’s be honest, we can all be a little crazy and disturbed at times. It’s what can contribute to us being colorful, mysterious and unique). I believe our dreams are our inner most deepest feelings and thoughts speaking to us as we sleep. While they can be deemed a state of abstraction or blurry trances, to me, they can sometimes be more easily decipherable than when attempting to weigh our options, consider a solution, and resolve a problem when in our conscious state (i.e. awake).
A Love Letter to My Thoughts: I’m thinking of you. Listening to you. At times I can’t completely understand you. But I know you are there. Waiting patiently, and reminiscing with me. Remembering those feelings of both gaiety and gloom. Believing in my ability to consciously exist with you, even when I may not always be aware that you are so discretely speaking to me. I appreciate you. You guide me accordingly. You console me unreservedly. You reveal things to me that I never thought possible. Sometimes I find myself blaming you for the disconcerting images and negativity that emerges within me. But it’s me, and my fears and insecurities that overwhelm you. And for this…I express my regrets to you. And I promise you that if a time comes where I may feel a lack of hope or an imminent despair. I will allow for you to do what you do best. Dream… With Devoted Love, Nicola
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